It is not fair that people got happy
While others got sad
And it is not fair that people got friends
But others not
My parents always fight everyday
And I was trapped in the middle
I always hope they will be fine
But it never be the way I wished
The fight of my parents
Had made a deep scar in my heart
But I always try to smile
But the smile, feels hurt
I had a friend at school
He's nice and smart
I'm enjoying my times with him
He's my best bestfriend
He's my place to hide
when someone's mad to me
He's my place to laugh together
Even the teacher's mad at us
But slowly, he went away
Leaving me without trace
He starts to bully me
Never even knew what's the matter
His action of leaving me
Had made a deep scar in my heart
But I always try to laugh
But the laugh, hurts even doubled
I thought it will be okay without him
I thought it will be fine because he's nothing
But I realize something
He grew very special in my heart
Which one hurts the most?
Being hated by friend, or bestfriend?
Someone means nothing, or everything?
And I was being hated by a bestfriend, that means everything
The special feelings that can't be fought for
Had made a deep scar in my heart
But I always try to laugh
But the laugh, triple hurts
I try to forget him
For he, didn't think of me
I walked away in different direction when I met him
He also walked to the opposite direction of me
He make all boys in class hate me
He make all boys won't talk to me
But I thought it was still okay
For I had my other bestfriends with me
But then I realize
In this dark world
No such word like bestfriend
There's only people who act like 'bestfriends'
There's no forever friendship in this world
There's only people who tries to keep it as long as he or she can
I thought I had bestfriends
But what I had was just backstabbers
People who said they are my bestfriend
Silently, backstabbed me
But I always try to close my ear, keep laughing
But the laugh, feels four time more painful
But life, must go on
I can't stop here and cries about my life
But I use the experience as a lesson
I won't trust 'bestfriends' too much
I thought it was better now
'Cause I have a wonderful class
No my 'ex-bestfriend'
No boys association that hates me
But I expected too much
They are just haters that can't be trusted
They talked about me
They're envy of my good grades
They are very smart
They are talented
They have many friends
They are popular
But why should they envy me?
They're already had a perfect life
Why should they envy me?
The unpopular and lonely girl like me?
They're just too bad at me
They can't be forgived
But I still closing my ears and smiled
But the smile, feels five times more painful
Can I survived this had life?
Can I stop this suffering?
There's no place to go
Home, school... feels like hell
Could anybody please help me?
Nobody will give their hands to me
And pull me up
Would anybody be the first?
